AN UNOBTAINED LOVE.

Interpretation of your dream Matt

The dream

I was in a dark shadowy, fog filled world, with no animals, dirt, horizon, or any real earthlike qualities. It was like a blank room and a ceramic floor. There were black abstract blocks I imagined would be buildings or some kind of shelter, but would only be like giant squares, and provided nothing. I never reached any of these anyway, they seemed like a desert illusion, always just out of reach. I was with a friend of mine who I loved very deeply and romantically. We were running from these dangerous dark demons that were trying to attack us. They could teleport around at will and I never know where one might show up. We would run run run, I would stop, try to assess a situation, grab her and stop her from leaving my side (trying to protect her from the demons and predict where they might be.) For the duration of this trip I thought she was holding back some information, that she maybe had an idea, or a better plan, but was choosing to trust my judgement. So this journey of running in this bleak world with no real substance continues, we run, I stop us and grab her, repeatedly, and at the last time I had grabbed her and held her close to re-survey the situation one of the demons appears right before us, slashing (and killing) her and wounding myself. I then seek these demons out without weapon and die trying to inflict damage in return. The last thing I remember is feeling that if I hadn't had her held in my arms, she could have ran or dodged the demon somehow and would still be alive.

Interpretation by Augusta Neumann

Dear Matt, this dream dig in your sense of despair and guilt, due perhaps to broken or never started relationship. Your instinct-dark shadow monsters are after you because you can't neglect them, they are part of you but you don't accept them. Your girlfriend symbolizes YOU holding back words that YOU didn't pronounce. The death at the end is a kind of desire that this despair ends...in the end. In dreams you cannot die, you just fall on your knees, pushing back rage. It's not her who could be alive yet (in love, young and ready to start again)but you. Kiss. Augusta